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Sue Korlan's avatar

I now have my own copy so I can write in it. As far as discerning where I am, I try to go to Confession at least once a week and the day after seems to be a day of massive temptations. Which would be today. So I understand on page 236 where she says she only thought about the Passion and her own sins.

I'm Charismatic and I've heard it said before about the three sources of visions. And I used to have them and get stressed because they showed terrible things until I came to realize that they were symbolic and nothing that was going to happen in reality but they symbolized things that really were going to happen in reality. What a relief. I also expect myself to spend a lot of time with prayer and Scripture.

Unfortunately, I don't have anyone I have to obey right now except Jesus. I was told long ago by someone when I was on a one day retreat that we should join the 200 club by doing the next 200 things we thought God wanted us to do and before we got that far we would pretty much know when the source wasn't Jesus. But I still get tricked from time to time. I think it was Merton who said God knows if we are trying to do His will even when we are mistaken and accepts the good intention, although he didn't use those words.

And I like that she tells us to model our lives on Christ and by their deeds you will know them.

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Francis P Farrar's avatar

Annie Dillard. I had to resort to "search."

The thought now bugging me is, "Well, no sense of smell? You know that this, most primitive sense of all, has something profound to do with learning as in Simple Memory?"

I do indeed, but I learned too late to invite medical interventions, which have been known to work.

I've made do with an otherwise possibly useless and ridiculously high IQ: 99.9 percentile Verbal and 99.2 percentile Math on the GRE. (Measured within a sample averaging 90 percentile within the general population.) Crazy! That, and having learned to do residential painting and general carpentry as a young man, enabled me to support myself independently and honorably, after proving too socially inept to thrive in the modern ecology community. (And they say grad school cannot teach you anything you really need to know!) Case closed!

The thought bugging me is: Might not the lack of a sense of smell have something to do with an early self-evaluation, as being one who, "Does. Not. Understand. What. Love. Is?" I have no idea. Maybe normal folk identify friend and foe by what they smell like? As do ants and social creatures of All kinds.

Do I get any slack when Judged by Him Who made me this way? I can manage the rational aspect here. Rationally, I understand and repent bitterly my failures in loving fully, or obeying fully when I was under authority. I am far from Perfections which I do understand in this regard, but what is this total love required by God?

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